Feeling good in your skin? in the body? I am feeling physically better than I have in a long time mostly thanks to the now 30 days long pescatarian diet - but still feel the need to cleanse - body and soul. Detox time.
This prepent 40 day process ends with the Kippur 24 hour fast - a cleanse for body and soul, a focused meditation on craving and discipline. I think I need a longer version this year. Starting today, thanks to Shira, I'm on a seven day raw fruit and veggie detox diet. It will end as I break the fast on Yom Kippur, probably on a mango. (ok, and then a single malt)
I want to lose the weight of the rage, the heavy fear, the terrible loneliness that tags along to the lack of faith that it will be ok when my heart mends and I don't feel so lonely and left behind. I want to use these last ten days of teshuva, this manipulated return process to the max. Sins are sometimes vague and repentance a big word - this feels simple and grounded in truth - purify, clean, shed.
I want more clarity of gut feelings, a plumbing job for all that is stuck.
I started this PREPENT period thirty days ago with the very least intention of change in the form of nutrition upgrade. I took on a healthier breakfast, a pesactarian diet and more home cooked meals. Check on all three.
I'm pleased to be still on this wagon - but I want also to bring into this journey the awareness of the emotional baggage that has made these days of reckoning so much more meaningful and dreadful than ever before. Eyes wide open to the pain of disappointment and the fears of being alone.
If any of you reading this feels like this is remotely interesting - find your own way to focus on food this week, on detox (coffee?) or cleansing in some way the balances mind and body and soul.
There's this beautiful liturgy for these days: "The soul is yours, and the body is your creation - have pity on all this creation. "
So, detox. simplicity. a harsh, limiting, disciplined matter of self control. One week. Go.
What should young people do with their lives today? .. the most daring thing is to create stable communities in which the terrible disease of loneliness can be cured - Kurt Vonnegut
I know what Vonnegut is talking about - we all do. Sooner or later we all expeirence terrible lonelienss, for longer or less. Dealing with loneliness - in ourselves and in the lives of others - is a big part of what our culture is about, for better or worse.